I feel absolutly sick.
never thought this would happen to me.
not me. not me. not me.
got my results back,
and I still dont even have the guts to call him.
he fucking ruined me. everything I had he took from me.
I always felt alex was part of my life, a fundemental charecter to my story.
he was. i will never forget how badly he burnt me.
his indifference. completly emotionless.
It will always haunt me. like the murderer standing calmly over suffering victems.
without a care in the world, but absolute misery in their smile.
His reaction is what makes me afraid. I dont want to give him another oppurtunity to be an asshole.
but I need to tell him. I dont know who he's fucking, but he should know what he has.

how do things get so fucked up.
so wrong. everything is so wrong.